I'm getting to know the place where I live one tree at a
time. And one boulder, one wildflower, one clump of moss . . . .
While abroad for a month, I reflected on the six acres
of boreal forest where I've been living for six years. I tried to
remember as many details as I could by consciously visualizing what it
was like to walk around the place. When something I remembered in one
spot reminded me of something in another, I would mentally walk myself
around in that area for a while. As I summoned details to my mind's
eye, I wrote them down; at the end of the month, the list numbered 243.
When I think about the myriad phenomena present in just
one square foot of ground, remembering 243 in six acres doesn't seem
all that many. What I remembered, though, illustrates the scale at
which I apprehend the terrain that surrounds me every day: I remembered
things like prominent landforms, discrete clearings, rock outcroppings,
particular trees, shrubs, wildflowers, and boulders. However, separate
leaves and spruce needles are outside the range of my normal
perception, though I know generally, rather than individually, that
they're present. As I've said, "I'll never live long enough to take it
all in."
Things had registered on my mind because of some
interaction between me and this terrain, even if it was only my
noticing them. Other interactions were more palpable because of my
physical engagement with the place, such as certain footfalls I know
well from carrying out blowdowns for firewood; or because of events
that have happened, such as things other people have done or said in
certain spots, or the coming and going of moose.
When I made my way around the place in my memory, I
didn't picture it as it is in the winter when everything is covered in
snow. And I only remembered some kind of essence of each thing, not the
teeming multitude of other details that are captured in the
photographs. Many of my recollections had more to do with the location
of certain phenomena. For example, I could remember where several
boulders are situated and their approximate size, though I only
remembered their shapes vaguely.
I took many of the photographs on my return, and even
more over the following year in order to match the season of my memory:
to capture, for example, certain wildflowers which bloom in the same
spot each year. Other photographs had to be retrieved from my record of
the place because some things disappeared. For example, in July I
checked the wild roses by the river each day in order to photograph
them when the flowers opened. But just before they did, suddenly they
were gone: a moose had come along and bitten the rosebuds right off the
stems.
In the video you hear me reading the list I made while I
was away, identifying the things I remembered. Several make use of
Newfoundland vernacular—I don't experience the place without local
names for things like plants and trees sounding in my head. And when I
first moved here, I used vernacular terms to name some of the main
landforms: the Tolt is the dominant height of land, the Droke is the
steep wooded valley, the Scrape is a bare steep place, and the Bawn is
the old overgrown meadow.
The large accompanying drawing is a 'memory map' that
shows my sense of where the things I remembered are located. It shows
the areas of greatest recall, which are the areas where I have the most
familiarity. Conversely, the blank areas on the map are places largely
unknown to me. There are still several areas of dense brush within
these six acres where I have not yet set foot.
This work encompasses spots on this site that I
cherish—spots where I have experienced delight and astonishment, beauty
and poetry. The place I dwell in, dwells in me. This project
strengthened my perceptions of and connections to the place, while
reminding me of its infinite details and their transience. Perhaps if
I'd lived there longer, or had been away longer, I might have
remembered more. When I returned home and walked around on the paths, I
saw things that caused me to say, "Oh, how could I have forgotten that?"